When something bad happens, especially when it’s something so shocking and painful that we can’t even comprehend the how and why, we tend to ask the big questions. Why would God allow this to happen? Where is God?
I can’t even attempt to answer those questions. Only God knows why He allows evil, sickness, and pain to exist in our lives. Sometimes, we may feel that if our faith is strong enough, if we just pray hard enough, we are ensured a peaceful, happy, successful, and financially secure life, without ever experiencing pain. We fall into the trap of praying for the specific want or need to be answered in a particular way, and forget to add the part that says “not my will, but yours be done”. *
Lately, I’ve begun to realize what it means to truly trust Jesus. It means to completely let go, and trust Him with your very life. That no matter what happens, you trust that “all things work together for good for those that love Him”. ** Your trust in Jesus no longer hinges on whether or not you get the answer you want. You trust Him and know that all things work toward your good, and also the good of His Kingdom! We are all in this together, and all play an integral part of the beautiful tapestry He is weaving. Only our Lord can see the complete, beautiful tapestry of His plan…we are only capable of seeing a veiled, partial view. ***
I always longed for a true relationship with Jesus. In the past, I based the relationship on whether prayers were answered, and what God seemed to be “doing for me”. It was almost as though if I did not get the results I anticipated, that either I wasn’t praying correctly, or God just wasn’t listening.
What I learned to ask myself is – what am I doing for the relationship? I expect God to always be there for me. Am I there for Him? Am I meditating, spending alone time with my God and listening for His loving whispers? Do I align myself with Him, and make necessary adjustments or do I go about my life, making the excuse “that’s just the way I am”. Do I stand on the Truth of His Word, or do I listen to the deceit and lies of satan…..through modern culture, political correctness, and the entertainment industry. Do I make the effort to choose what is most pleasing in God’s eyes, or do I make choices that are most offensive to the ONE who loves me perfectly and unconditionally?
We all have sin in our lives. The closer we pull to Jesus, and allow the Holy Spirit to enter our hearts, we will notice subtle changes. It becomes easier to pull away from sins that were strongholds for so long. When we struggle and fall, we look to Jesus to cover us with His forgiveness and grace. Sometimes, we feel overwhelmed by the burden of a sin that is so strong within us, even after prayer, confession, and repentence, that the only thing we can do is totally surrender it to our Savior. He is always there for us, loving us and waiting for us to let Him in. What are we waiting for?
So my simple answer to the question “Where is God?”… He is all around us, and the most wonderful and joyful reality is that He is in each heart that invites Him in.
*Luke 22:42 Father, if you are willing, take this cup from me; yet not my will, but yours be done.
**Romans 8:28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
*** 1 Corinthians 2:9 But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.