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Look for the Pattern

Ok, I have to admit, I absolutely love playing a popular online word scramble game.  The kind that shows a bunch of letters, and you have to find all the words that can be made out of those letters.  If you don’t find the big word that uses ALL the letters, you lose.

When playing this game, I learned that the key is moving the letters around until you can find a pattern.  Sometimes it is easy to spot the word, and it is a familiar one.  Other times, if you just keep looking for a pattern and try it out, the word is eventually found.

Many times I never even heard of the word that is revealed to me.  I just had to trust the logic of the letters.

While playing the other day, the thought hit me that our lives are like the word scramble game.

For me, so many years of my life were a scramble, and I could not see any purpose or connection of one day to the next.  I was floundering.  The mixed messages from life experiences, peer pressure, inner turmoil and what I was hearing at school and Church, were scrambling my ability to see, think, hear and know what the Truth was.

My day to day existence was more or less just hanging on to the belief that there IS a God, and He says that He loves me.  I prayed, attended Church, and even was very involved with our Church Community, however, inside, I was struggling.

In those years, there were joyful moments with my husband, family, and friends, especially once my sons were born.  However, there was always a deep pain and longing inside my heart and soul.  I did not know where that darkness and pain was coming from, and I couldn’t understand why God wasn’t making it go away.  I could not see where He was working in my life.

Much like the scrambled letters in my word game.

Faith, spiritual growth, and the eventual opening of my heart to the Love of Jesus, has been a long process.  For so many years I have been only looking for the familiar patterns in my life, thinking I would be able to figure things out and heal myself with self-help books and visits to therapists.  Yes, progress was made, and I was enlightened one small step at a time.  But I knew something was missing.

Then, my journey took a sharp, unexpected turn.  I began to meditate on the life of Jesus through praying the rosary.  (something I never believed in before)  I meditated on the pure trusting spirit and humility of the Mother of Jesus, and how much God the Father trusted His Son to her loving care.  I realized that since God is my Father, and Jesus is His Son, then Jesus is my brother….that would make Mary my mother.  A loving mother that wants only good for my life.  A mother who is constantly praying, interceding and leading me toward her Son. The more I prayed, the closer my relationship formed with Jesus, my Savior.  I finally began to understand, that although I always believed that Jesus is the Son of God, I did not have a relationship with Him.  I didn’t know Him.

Through the Holy Spirit, I was lead to pray in faith, and to read spiritual books instead of “self help” ones.  I was being enlightened to READ AND TRUST the Bible, instead of trusting the scrambled so called “wisdom” of the world.

My foundation is now a firm one, and my eyes, ears and heart are being opened, a little at a time.

My journey with Jesus is just beginning.  There are many dark places in my soul that I trust that the Holy Spirit is working on right at this moment.  Many events that have occurred that have been scrambled from my comprehension…

In the past, I thought God wasn’t answering my prayers, because I asked Him to reveal things relating to my memories, and it didn’t seem as though He was allowing that to happen.  I felt like I had a steel trap door that was blocking me from seeing things that would help me to progress in my spiritual/emotional well-being.  I thought these things because I was unable to see the truth and the pattern of my journey. In order to do that, I had to look at my life through different eyes….see through the “scramble” and start to move the events around, seeing the patterns emerge…

because the patterns/evidence of Christ in my life were there, and the answers were there, all along. 

You see, the key to understanding, in faith, that God is always with you and working His wonderful plan for your life, is like finding the big word, using all the letters, in the word scramble game.  If you don’t find that word, you lose the round, and have to start over.

If you don’t put your faith in Jesus, you will flounder because you will not be able to see His work in your life, and will not see the pattern of your life.

Now, when I look at my life, I can see the pattern… the fingerprint of God.  He was there all along.  He was there loving me tenderly when I was afraid, lonely, suffering, and living in spiritual darkness.  He was there when I reached for help.  He was there when I prayed, even when I did not fully believe.  He was there when I demanded that He heal my heart…when in selfishness and despair I wanted certain people in my life to “disappear”.  He was there when I hurt the ones I loved the most.  He was there in my dreams, revealing bits and pieces of the source of my pain…ever so gently.

The Lord desires for us to be happy, living in His Presence.  The  mission of our life will be revealed to us…just be ready…expect the unexpected.   You will not find Truth and Peace  in the world’s scramble .  You will find it in the revelation of God’s love for you and the special place you hold in His Kingdom.

Never give up…always look for the ways the Lord is leading you.  He will speak to you in ways you do not expect.   But He is always there.

May you be blessed in the total peace and love of our Savior.

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Eye Hath Not Seen

It’s a funny time of year for me…it’s almost autumn.  The hot and humid days of the summer have disappeared, and for now, here in Virginia, we’ve been enjoying weather in the seventies and low eighties.  The sun is still shining brightly, however, there is that unmistakable crispness in the air.  The nights are cool.

All that is missing…is what I love the very most…the colors of fall.

Why do I love fall?  Let me count the ways.  The smell of campfires, and hot dogs roasting.  The beautiful color palette that spreads so beautifully right in front of our eyes.  The crunch of leaves under our feet as we walk.  Pumpkins, apple cider, beef stew, a big pot of chili with friends, apple cake.   Either a cup of warm cocoa or a cold mug of craft beer in my hand…there is a time and place for both, depending on the occasion!  For me, nothing touches my heart and senses like the autumn season.

When I think of the beauty of fall, and nature in general, my thoughts always drift to one of my favorite Bible verses:

“But as it is written, Eye hath not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man, the things which God hath prepared for them that love him.”  1 Corinthians 2:9

How could anyone doubt the existence, power and glory of God when witnessing the beauty all around us?  When I am outside, surrounded by the creativity and majesty of God, I feel so blessed and grateful.  Who really needs the artificial pleasures of this world, when God has gifted us with His holy and majestic creations all around us?

And let’s take that a step forward…according to 1 Corinthians 2:9, we cannot even FATHOM what the Lord has planned for us when we are in heaven with Him.  Perfect joy, perfect peace, basking in God’s perfect light and love.  Colors, sounds, feelings that we are not even capable of conceiving in thought, are being prepared for us right now!

Even more beautiful than fall?  Isn’t that exciting?

Dear Lord, please help me to always trust in your Word and your Love for me.  Help me to open my heart, mind, body and soul to your Holy Spirit, so as to fill me with the pure joy that only comes from you.  That joy is so complete, that I will not be able to contain it…help me to share your saving grace with a world in need. 

Help me to see that for me, the world is encompassed in my daily life.  Lord, please open my eyes to all the ways I can serve you today through reaching out, in your love, to the people you place in my life.

I ask these things in the name of Jesus.

For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse.           Romans 1:20


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Help Me to Trust

Lord, the closer I draw to you, the more aware I am of my smallness.

Your love envelopes me, strengthening my faith, filling my heart with hope, and intensifying my desire to love as You love.

Help me to trust in Your ways, to give Your Holy Spirit free reign in my heart, body, mind and soul.

As I live this life that You have blessed me with, help me to know that You live within me, and Your Holy Spirit is constantly searching my soul, shining Your light on all the dark places that need healing.

Help me to let go of the false belief that I can heal myself…for only You know what lies in the deep recesses of my broken heart.  Only You know my true identity, and the mission You are entrusting me with for the glory of Your Kingdom.

I ask these things, in the sweet name of Jesus.  Amen.

 Trust in the LORD with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding.

 In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths.  Proverbs 3:5

 

 


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On your deathbed {what will matter?}

What is REALLY important? Some words to bless and enlighten…

DeathbedWe live in a world of “here and now” and sometimes we forget that there is a bigger picture.

A greater purpose.

A specific reason for every single beat of our heart.

We focus so much on the external, temporary things of life and get caught up in worldly pursuits that we forget the reason why.

Why we woke up this morning.

Why we do the things we do every day.

Why we chase certain dreams and desires.

And sometimes all it takes is stepping back for a mere moment to remind yourself of what this life is really about.

We are always on the go, rushing forward into our future and sometimes we need to remember to take a minute to stop and pause.

To reflect on where we’ve been and where we’re going.

To think about the priorities and pursuits of our life.

And decide whether they are…

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Our Journey Toward Christ

Many thoughts are tumbling around in my head this morning.  Because of some changes in our family dynamics…due to our family moving away, and some other longstanding issues, my heart and soul are searching for God’s will and direction.

I believe that this is a time of “digesting” all that the Holy Spirit has revealed to me up to this point.

These intense feelings I am experiencing have confirmed the importance and calling to be of support to each other in our journey toward Christ and his ultimate will for his kingdom.  The human struggles we each endure, whether physical, emotional or spiritual, are unique for each one of us.  I believe, as Christians, we are called to edify and support each other through the entire journey….through the mountaintop experiences, and also the struggles, and plateaus.

Never to judge; always willing to lead, guide and share God’s love and truth with each other.

With all that is happening in our personal lives, culture, and the whole world, I am feeling the intense need to pray for the conversion of hearts, minds and souls.  And that includes my own.  I ask that the Lord continue to fill my heart and soul with His Holy Spirit, and I ask that I remain humble to learn the ways I need to grow.

Dear Father, 

Please instill in us pure hunger and thirst for your truth, love and grace.  Help us to know you and your ways through your Holy Word.  Help us to stay humble; always knowing that it is You who is working through us, not our own effort…but YOU.   Help us to be open to your Holy Spirit, making us a channel of your love and peace to others. 

We ask these things in the name of your precious son, Jesus.  Amen


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Opportunities to Share God’s Love

This past weekend, my husband and I enjoyed some special time with my son, Joe, and his wife, Melissa.  They are in the process of moving to the west coast, so we were having some in-depth discussions about how the Lord is leading them.

After sharing a recent “God inspired” experience I had in a grocery store, my son wanted to share an experience he had.  As he started talking about it, his eyes filled and we could all feel his heart.  Here is Joe’s story:

He was grocery shopping as usual…up and down the aisles and very much in a hurry.  He was totally preoccupied with the swirl of activity and tasks that needed to be done.

An elderly woman came up to him, and said that she was from the homeless shelter and she wondered if he could help out.  She said “Please don’t be mad  that I am asking.”

Joe is the type of person that would give the shirt off his back to anyone in need.  However, in this case, with his mind on other things, he let her know he was not mad, but did not have cash with him.  She went on her way.

As soon as she walked away, he realized what he had done.  She was in need, and he could have paid for her groceries with his check card…he picked up a few more items he needed, and then looked for her in every aisle.  He could not find her.

Immediately, he started to pray.  “Lord, I know that you sent this woman to me, and I failed.  I didn’t help her in her need and give as Jesus would have.    Please, send someone else to me that is in need, and I promise that I will not let you down again.”

The next stop was the gas station.  As he was filling his tank, an SUV pulled in.  A man, that looked a little disheveled and exasperated, jumped out of his car, and walked over to Joe.  He asked if Joe could help him…even with just one gallon of gas so he could get down the road.  He shared that he has a large family and they recently decided to purchase the SUV so they can travel around comfortably.  Then he lost his job….and now he can’t even afford to put gas in it.  He was a broken man.

Joe told him to pull his vehicle over to the pump and filled it for him.  The man could hardly believe what was happening, especially with the price of gas being what it is.

Joe asked if he knows the Lord, and asked if he could pray with him…

After hearing Joe’s story, you could have heard a pin drop.  Our hearts were filled with the wonder of God’s love and grace.

So many opportunities are placed in each of our lives every day.  Many times we stop and give of ourselves and share Christ’s love, and many times those opportunities to love slip through our hands.

May we always have the humility to ask the Lord for forgiveness in the times we do not give of ourselves fully, and ask for new opportunities to share our love, gifts, and blessings with those He places on our path every day.

He that loveth not knoweth not God; for God is love.  1 John 4:8

And now abideth faith, hope, charity, these three; but the greatest of these is charity.  1 Corinthians 13:13

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.   John 3:16