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The Desire of Our Hearts


Sometimes we forget that God knows our hearts better than we do.  

We trod along each day, searching for those things that we believe will make us happy.  As we attain our dreams and goals, we usually find that when we reach those goals, and actually have exactly what we were desiring, life still isn’t the perfect place we imagined it to be.  So, not understanding the truth and reality of life,  we move ourselves once again toward another imagined perfect scenario of happiness.

We all do it in one way or another.

It’s hard for us to understand that in many of life’s circumstances, there will always be a struggle…and with struggle, there is usually suffering.  We try to skip over the suffering part of life, because it can feel like the twisting of a knife in our soul.  It hurts so deeply, that sometimes we deal with it by ignoring or burying the pain.

That’s what I did for most of my life…ignored and buried the pain. I buried the memories and  feelings that I couldn’t bear to face, into different sections of my mind and heart…and lived  the life that I created for myself…my “happy place.”  For so many years, I strived for my own peace of mind, and to create a warm, inviting, loving home for my husband and sons.  All of my heart and soul were directed toward finding ways to make my family feel safe, loved and nurtured.

For many years, that goal brought me deep happiness, and I felt loved and at peace…until I didn’t.

Somewhere along the way, I started to become aware of a forgotten reality that would show itself to me in flashes and bits and pieces. Like the layers of an onion, the illusions that I held of my life started to peel away, one layer at a time.  As with an onion, the revealing truths that were exposed, caused stinging tears, pain, and heartache.

As I become more and more aware of my own feelings that I never allowed myself to feel,  and remember the reasons for the many issues that I struggle with every day, I am becoming closer and closer to Jesus.  Although sometimes things are unclear and confusing to me, I trust that I am being led to developing certain knowledge and virtues through the suffering.

No matter what life brings, or what pain I may be experiencing, I trust in the Lord. All things work toward good for those who love him.

God has always been with me.  He was there as I was suffering abuse and trauma as a child.  He was there with me as I shut down my feelings, and left my body, so I wouldn’t  experience the pain and horror that my little mind and heart could not fathom. He surrounded me with the gentle love that kept me together, until the time came for me to face all of what happened in our family, as my sisters and I were growing up.

Suffering brings us closer to Jesus (if that is what we choose) and helps us to develop love and empathy for those that we meet that are suffering.  Our eyes and hearts become wide open to knowing and seeing the deep pain and needs of those around us…especially when they experienced the same struggles that we did.

Our Lord doesn’t always protect and keep us from harm.  However, I believe that he is always working in ways we cannot fathom…giving us the opportunity to grow in faith, love and hope here on earth, leading us to the true desire of our hearts, which is eternal life with Him.


Take delight in the Lordand he will give you the desires of your heart. Psalm 37:4

We know that all things work together for good for those who love God, who are called according to his purpose.  Romans 8:28




19 thoughts on “The Desire of Our Hearts

  1. I’m going re-blog this tomorrow. It has me in tears…have you followed my life?

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  2. Denial is a gift from God until it no longer works for us … and God knows exactly when we’re able to face the truth and go through the process of healing from trauma. He is a master at recycling pain into beauty. You are a wounded healer that God uses to help others. He is good and He is faithful.

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  3. A heart-touching piece. God bless you 🙏

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  5. Hi Bernadette…it is as if you were writing this post just for me! You touched my heart and my pain in ways that are hard to imagine. But through it all I have felt exactly the same way…God was always with me. And some people just can’t understand struggle and strife…I have heard so many say if there is a God, then why does he allow children to suffer. All I can say to that is that God did not CAUSE my suffering and I know for certain that I would not have made it where I am if not for God!! Thank you for sharing your soul with such honesty and grace. We made it through those hard times and that truly made us stronger…stronger people and with stronger faith. Many Sweet Blessings to you ❤

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    • Thank you for your kindness…I never intended to write this post when I began, I even had photos pulled together for a completely different subject. However, I believe that The Holy Spirit gave me the words that needed to be said and heard.

      I am blessed that your heart was touched by those words that were given to me.

      With love and prayers,

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      • I so totally believe that we hear…see…feel…everything that we need…when we need it. We are fully loved.
        I have had that kind of experience also, where I was all set to post one thing and something completely different ended up on the page…truly meant to be.
        Thank you Bernadette, for listening to your soul and then having the courage to share it.
        Love and prayers back to you! 💜

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  6. Hi Bernadette, I’m sad to read of your suffering as a child. Sadly I can say I have experienced suffering as a child too. I am so glad you find God. Thank you for sharing.

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    • Thank you for visiting my site, and thank you for your kind words.

      So sorry that you have suffered as a child…it is a a heavy burden to carry throughout life.

      I have learned to be grateful for the many blessings in my life, and to try to learn from the difficult times. God is always with us, and he shows himself if we allow ourselves to see.

      Blessings and love to you,

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  7. Thank you for sharing your thoughts with love, Bernadette. Excellent. Blessings to you.

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