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The Sorrowful Mysteries

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This is the second in the series of  “How Praying the Rosary Changed my Life.”  Please click here for the background of how I was led to The Rosary, and also to learn about The Rosary and The Joyful Mysteries.

Today I will cover the Sorrowful Mysteries, which are prayed on Tuesday and Friday.

My prayer is that The Holy Spirit will open your heart to these great mysteries, and fill you with the love, joy, and peace of Our Lord, Jesus.

There are five meditations associated with the Sorrowful Mysteries. I will cover each one.

  1. Agony in the Garden   Mark 14:32-46  Luke 22:41-44  (For true repentance of my sins)   Dear Lord, how can I even begin to understand the agony that you endured, as you prayed to your Father in the garden?  You knew exactly what was going to happen to you…that you were…

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How Praying The Rosary Changed My Life

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My relationship with Jesus became  much more intimate, and my faith life, and life in general, was changed because of my relationship with His Mother. You can read a little of how that change was inspired here.

Praying and meditating on the Rosary transformed my life, and could transform yours, too.

Many people ask me about the Rosary, and do not understand why someone would pray to Mary, and not just directly to Jesus.  Although I am a cradle Catholic, I had the same questions for many years.

Until I was personally led by the Holy Spirit to meditate and pray the Rosary.

By opening my heart to Our Lord’s Blessed Mother, I was enveloped in her motherly love for me, and in and through that  love, was drawn closer and closer to her Son.  Once I realized in my soul that Mary is actually the Mother of God

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Rest in the Love of Jesus

There are many reasons that I could give to explain why I haven’t written a post for such a long time.  However, this is what sums it up:

The facade of my life that I unknowingly created in my own mind was demolished.  This devastated me, and I am still processing what it means to be me.

I thought that I dealt with each life event as they happened…but I didn’t, all the way back to my childhood.  What I did was put all of it on the back burner, thinking that I could go on with my life without actually feeling the pain, confusion, disappointment or anger that was simmering inside of me, just below the surface.  Because, I have so many wonderful blessings in my life…why couldn’t I just focus on those blessings?  What was wrong with me, what was that gnawing feeling down deep that there was more to me than I was willing to acknowledge?

The last few years were extremely difficult for me: 

My sons and their wives moved across country…something I never, ever envisioned happening to our family.

My mom passed away after living with my husband and me for over ten years.  The stress of being responsible for her health and happiness, and then sharing in her dying process through hospice in our home, was overwhelming.  As I started to grieve for her, I realized that I never truly grieved or faced the death of my father years ago. And both of those grief processes are very complicated.

Making the decision to move cross country to be near our new grandson, and my oldest son and daughter in law.  That meant leaving friends, family, and our beautiful home in Virginia.  Which also meant downsizing about 75 percent of our belongings, and moving into a much smaller condo in California.  As I sold and gave away so many things that had been a part of my life for so long, I kind of put blinders on, and pushed all my feelings to the side.  I did the exact same thing regarding my friends and family that I would be moving away from.  How else could I have made that move?  I literally numbed myself without even realizing it.

Then I started a job at an assisted living community.  I work reception, and have fallen in love with many of the residents and their families.  Although I love the people, and the relationships, something else started to happen to me.  I started suffering anxiety/panic attacks, and I did not understand why.

Evidently, God isn’t through with me yet.  More and more dark layers are being peeled away from my heart.  I am facing demons that have lied to me for many, many years.  And once again, Jesus is helping me to heal gently.  I want it all to be gone NOW, however, He knows the timing…He knows what remains hidden inside of me.

One of the reasons that I haven’t posted in such a long time, is that I don’t have all the answers.  However, I know now that it’s ok not to have the answers.  Jesus has been there each and every minute of my life. He knows The Truth…He knows my true soul and my true self.  My life is in His hands, and I trust where He is leading me.

He is there for all of us…in our joy, sadness, sin, anger, confusion, grief, and pain. When we truly accept that, we can stop trying to control everything and everyone in our lives, and we can rest in the love of Jesus.  And we will come closer and closer to understanding “what it means to be me.”

 

 

 

 

 


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Love Moments

Each day, we are bombarded with darkness in the news.  Story after story of atrocities are being revealed and exposed to us by the minute.  We are allowing ourselves to be guided into a sort of numbness and helplessness by the stories that are purposely chosen to be released to us through the media.

We are not being told the whole story.

Yes, this world is filled with darkness.  And in my opinion, it is a good thing that we are becoming more aware of the sin and evil that always existed in the shadows.  Now, we don’t have to look too far to discover evil…it is right in front of our faces twenty-four hours a day.

However, grace, kindness and mercy also flows around us each day.  We only need to search for goodness and ask that our eyes be opened so that we may see it.

A few months ago, I started a job at an Assisted Living Retirement Community.  The facility where I work is beautiful and offers much in the way of life enrichment.  I have fallen in love with the residents, and also with the beautiful staff that cares for them, and shows love in so many ways.

Let me share a few of the moments I have witnessed…

Wonderful exchanges between friends, where one is hard of hearing.  Watching as the one friend patiently repeats, slowly and loudly, until the friend can understand.  This happens over and over throughout the day, and I have never seen impatience or mean-spiritedness in the interactions.

One resident in particular, is a blessing to all by her calmness of spirit, and her willingness to help.  Not only does she greet and speak with each person she encounters, she has also been extremely patient and helpful with me, while I was training for my position.

Residents that are filled with pain or with bent bodies, refusing to give up.  They face each day as it comes and push forward one step at a time.  They refuse to give up.

Family members that visit their loved ones almost every day.  The daily struggle of their own lives, plus the concern and emotion they feel regarding their family members that are living at the Assisted Living Community, are very evident. They are feeling many different emotions as life pulls them in different directions.  However, they are there to share love and comfort…they are there to share themselves.  It is a beautiful thing to witness.

Many family members live too far to visit a lot.  On Mother’s Day, I watched love and pride radiate on the face of one mother when she first saw her family walk in the door.  Then my heart was pierced, along with hers, as I saw her goodbye embrace with her son, that she doesn’t see regularly… Love is such a beautiful, powerful force, that is so hard to even comprehend.  A mother’s bond with her child is unexplainable.

When someone is having an “off” day, I watch as community members try to guide their friends to socialize and participate in events.  I do not see judgement in play.  What I see is an inner knowing and understanding of the difficulties that others may be experiencing, and their concern for that person.

A hand on a shoulder, a hug, a warm smile, an invitation, a conversation, validation, acceptance, service, love…these wonderful expressions of love are all around us each day.  You may not have the opportunity to see the same love moments that I do, but I can guarantee that they are happening no matter where you are.

Look for those moments.  For when you find them, you will find Jesus.


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Be that “Somebody!”

Sometimes it is the simplest of words that can jump out and touch our minds and hearts.

Often, those words convey truths that already live inside of us, however, we have never fully comprehended the potential or power of that truth.

Today I was hit by a zinger by none other than Mother Angelica. I am reading one of her books, “Mother Angelica’s Little Book of Life Lessons and Everyday Spirituality.”  This book is filled with page after page of wisdom, written for all Christians…not just Catholics…in case you were wondering.  

“You may be the only Jesus your neighbor will ever see.”

Wow…an extremely simple and powerful thought.

How do we portray Jesus in our daily walk?  When we cross paths with the homeless, when someone is rude to us, when we are feeling triggered by words or actions, when we are stressed, when we are suffering, when someone doesn’t understand our intentions or beliefs, when someone aggressively disagrees with us, when things aren’t going our way???

We have all gone through those situations.  There are many times that I have been angry, disrespectful, apathetic, and unforgiving.  How blessed we are, that we can ask forgiveness from God, and not only be forgiven, but blessed in a way that helps us to repent from our hurtful thoughts and actions.

How can we show “Jesus” to our family and all those that we cross paths with?

For me, the most important step is to pray that the Holy Spirit works through me, and touches those on my path with His love…whether I am aware of it or not.  Meaning, that even when I fall short, or don’t handle a situation as well as I would have liked, He would bless those I encounter with His love and mercy.  And that He works through me in my daily life, helping me to be a transparent person and a true Christ Follower, so that those who happen to see me without my knowledge, will hopefully see the goodness of God working through me.

There are many ways that we can reveal the Jesus that lives within us to the world.  I am thinking of a few, however, know that in your creativity, you will find many other ways.

You may be the only Jesus your neighbor will ever see, when you choose to:

Make eye contact with all those you meet, including the homeless, or less advantaged…introduce yourself, initiate conversation, and if you are able, either share some cash with them, or ask if they need a meal or maybe a cold drink or a warming cup of coffee.  Allow Jesus to touch them through your kindness.  Let them know you SEE them…that they matter to you.

Share your smile liberally.  You would be amazed if you truly knew how your special smile can affect a heart…and someone’s day.

Give people the benefit of the doubt when they offend or are rude to you.  Take a moment to think before lashing out, and then pray for them.

Give honest compliments.  You know the kind…the thoughts that run through your head all the time.  “What a beautiful family you have!” “You were wonderful giving that presentation.”  “You look amazing in that outfit.”  “You have the most beautiful eyes, or hair, or spirit.”  “What a sweet dog you have, what is his name?”  “I admire your strength.” “You are an awesome teacher, and I appreciate what you do.”  “You are great at your job…thanks for the wonderful service.”  The list goes on and on.  Don’t be afraid to pass on the good that you notice or feel about a person.

Allow yourself to be human.  When you make a mistake, own up to it and apologize.  When you are feeling down or depressed, reach out and share your feelings with a trusted family member or friend.  Most of the time, they will already know you are going through a struggle and will be happy to understand why you are not being yourself.  Don’t make the mistake of thinking that allowing Jesus to shine through you means that you need to be “perfect.”

When there are tasks that need done, and you don’t feel like doing them, whether at home or at work, ask Jesus to work through you.  Say a prayer of thanksgiving for all of your blessings and offer it to the Lord.  Because, at that moment, the task at hand is God’s will for your life.  Learn to find joy in that knowledge.

Listen to the voice in your heart when certain names pop up in your mind.  That is the voice of the Holy Spirit, prodding you.  Make that visit or phone call, send a card or text to let the person know you are thinking of them and praying for them, fill a monetary or any other need that is an issue for them…always look for  a way to share love.  Oftentimes, it will be a small gesture, and sometimes you will be called to share something greater of yourself.

Learn to look for Jesus in each and every person…look past their weaknesses and flaws and look for the good.  If it is just a little flicker, focus on it and help them to understand the flicker (goodness) that lives within them.

And be sure to look for Jesus in yourself, and to focus on the goodness of His love inside your heart.  Bask in the mercy of his love, and your heart will overflow!

When I started this blog, I named it “Somebody Loves Me.”  I chose that name, because for many people, they need to know “Somebody Loves Me,” before they can start to believe that “God Loves Me.”

Be that “Somebody!”

 

 

 

 

 


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Jesus Christ Superstar

 

 

My husband and I look forward to watching the “Jesus Christ Superstar” movie, among a few others, each year at Easter time.  I know that there are different takes on this film, and many even believe it to be blasphemous.  I understand these thoughts and opinions and respect them.  There are many scenes  that make me wince.

Because, on the surface, the movie does indeed look to be disrespectful and blasphemous to Jesus and his divinity.  That is the intent…being that the characters are human, as we all are human.

In my opinion, the music and the casting of characters is absolutely heart touching and as perfect as worldly art can be.  When losing myself in the words and feelings communicated through the music and lyrics, I am drawn inward…to how we are connected to these characters, no matter what their flaws and sins happen to be.

For the last couple of days, “King Herod’s Song” keeps playing over and over again in my head.  Much of the lyrics jump out at me and pull me in.

Maybe you will understand my take on these words and how they help to enlighten my spirit and draw me closer to Jesus and his mercy.

Here are the lyrics:

Jesus, I am overjoyed

To meet You face to face.

You’ve been getting quite a name

All around the place.

Healing cripples Raising from the dead.

And now I understand You’re God……

At least that’s what You’ve said.

 

So You are the Christ

You’re the great Jesus Christ.

Prove to me that you’re divine

 Change my water into wine.

That’s all you need do

And I’ll know it’s all true.

 C’mon King of the Jews.

 

 Jesus, you just won’t believe

 The hit you’ve made around here.

 You are all we talk about

 The wonder of the year!

 Oh, what a pity If it’s all a lie…

 Still I’m sure that you can rock

 The cynics if you try.

 

 So if you are the Christ

 You’re the great Jesus Christ

 Prove to me that You’re no fool

 Walk across my swimming pool.

 If You do that for me

 Then I’ll let you go free.

 C’mon, King of the Jews!

 

 I only ask things I’d ask any superstar.

 What is it that you have got

 That puts You where You are?

 

I am waiting, yes, I’m a captive fan

I’m dying to be shown

That You are not just any man.

 

 So if you are the Christ

 Yes, the great Jesus Christ

 Feed my household with this bread

 You can do it on your head.

 Or has something gone wrong?

 Why do You take so long?

 Come on, King of the Jews!

 

 Hey, aren’t you scared of me, Christ?

 Mr. Wonderful Christ..

 You’re a joke, You’re not the Lord!

 You are nothing but a fraud!

 Take Him away He’s got nothing to say

 Get out, You King of the get out

 Get out, You King of the Jews

 Get out, You King of the Jews

 Get out of my life!

“King Herod’s Song (Jesus Christ Superstar/Soundtrack Version)” by Josh Mostel

 

Wow…what a deluge of ideas to cover.  So many thoughts and emotions are triggered by the words themselves, and also the delivery by King Herod.  The actor, Josh Mostel, certainly portrayed the part to a tee…filled with the arrogance of the life he has immersed himself in.

However, there is the faintest glimmer of hope and curiosity about the man, Jesus.  Could he really be God?

King Herod has heard about the miracles that Jesus has performed, and he is aware that there is something special about him.

He wants Jesus to be God…in the way that he wants him to be God.  He wants Jesus to perform miracles for him, on command, to prove Jesus’ divinity, in a way that will appease his doubts in the tangible way that he desires.

All the time King Herod is asking for miracles, he is still enmeshed in the ways of the world…in his sinful life.  While he would like proof that Jesus is Lord, he refuses to open his heart to the Truth, by keeping it shut tight within the company of perversion and worldly pleasure.

When Jesus does not perform on demand, and there are no evident miracles, the last line is very telling for all of us…

Get out, You King of the Jews… Get out of my life!

When we don’t want to change, or things don’t go as we think they should, we don’t want the “burden” of having Jesus in our lives.  We don’t want the guilt of admitting we are sinners. We keep him at arm’s length, and even banish him completely, in order for us to stay “comfortable” in our current life choices.

We are living in a time of great delusion, perversion, and immorality.  We have lost the ability to love each other, and in many cases, do not even have a clue as to how to have a real and true relationship with those that God places in our lives.

We are engrossed in our own circle of diversion that blind us to the Truth…which is Jesus.

In times of trouble we beg God to change our lives and perform miracles for ourselves and our loved ones.

All the while, surrounded with our arrogant and sinful lives.  We have the audacity to ask for miracles, for God to prove he is God, at the same time that we refuse to even consider changing our lives.

We surround ourselves with distractions…movies, music, books, fashion, politics, culture, spiritualism, fleshly desires, and miss what has always been right in our grasp.  Just like Herod, and his “posse.”

Did you notice the line, “I’m dying to be shown that You are not just any man.”  Yes, our spirits are dying, and in need of Jesus’ saving grace.  Our souls are longing to be saved.

If we only dare to break away from the deceit and sin that we have surrounded ourselves in…and humbly ask Jesus into our hearts and lives. To choose to believe, and then  pray that Jesus blesses us with the gift of faith.

And we must be willing to walk away from the ideas and things that are holding us captive in our self-imposed desolation.

Only then will we realize full relationship with Jesus…by trusting him and his ways in our lives, even when we might not see our prayers being answered in the way we think they should be.

My prayer is that in the midst of our confusion and the deceit that the world is surrounding us with, that we allow Jesus to shine his light into our souls and illuminate the darkness that resides within us.

And that we take that crucial step of faith toward the mercy and grace that Jesus is offering us…and allow him to start peeling away the layers of deception that have kept us from him.

Only then will we understand the miracles that are happening around us each and every moment. Even when we do not “demand” those miracles.

 

Jesus replied, “It is also written: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.”  Matt 4:7

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Proverbs 3:5-6 

if my people who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land.

2 Chronicles 7:14

 

 

 


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We are Covered

While I was praying the sorrowful mysteries of the rosary, my mind was overtaken with some of my past sins.  The kind that fill me with shame…the ones that linger in my mind every once in a while.

After a moment or two of feeling that guilt and shame, a vision that I had a few months ago (while saying the rosary) filled my being.

In this vision, I was the guilty one, and just about to be punished for my sins.  I deserved it, for my sins were many.  Jesus was bent over me, with his eyes firmly and lovingly set on mine.  The whip started flying…I could hear the sound of the cords cutting through the air and feel them ripping into  Jesus’ body.  I could feel his spirit, smell his scent in the moist air and feel his body wince with every connection of that whip against his flesh. I felt tremendous fear, however, Jesus never broke His loving and merciful gaze that pierced straight into my soul.  He lovingly protected me from each and every blow, and my body was never touched.

At that moment, I understood the amazing love that Jesus offers to me and all of us.  He came to Earth to save us…to suffer in our place for the sins that we have committed and are still committing.  He has placed Himself between us and our deserved punishment…and is still there for us.

He covers us in His love, mercy, and in His blood.

We must always remember, that when Jesus was beaten, blasphemed, mocked and crucified, these atrocities were not forced upon Him.  He offered Himself for us.  His life was not taken from Him…He offered His Body as atonement for our sins.  His life was given.

Freely, and without reserve.

What are we willing to offer Him of ourselves?

That is something that we must all think about on this precious Friday, and on every day that we are blessed with.

What are we willing to offer Him?

 

And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, “This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me.”

In the same way, after the supper he took the cup, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you.”   Luke 22:19-20

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.  John 3:16

But He was pierced through for our transgressions,
He was crushed for our iniquities;
The chastening for our well-being fell upon Him,
And by His scourging we are healed.  Isaiah 53:5