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It’s Not All About Me

There was a long time in my life, where I was searching for my “purpose,” and trying to figure out what it meant to be me. Day by day life was sometimes a struggle for me, and I constantly compared myself to what the world deems as important, or successful.

Since I lived a simple life, and chose to be a wife, mother, and homemaker, versus a successful business woman or rocket scientist, I was lead to believe that somehow I was a failure as a woman.  That I was a let down to the feminists of this culture…who seem to thrive on the “me first” philosophy of life, and the idea that children or family should never hold a woman back from the glory that she is…or should be.

I was being pulled in two opposite directions.  The world was pulling me in the direction of finding what “I” needed to be happy, and my heart was pulling me in the direction of striving to find ways to make my family happy.

Searching…

This constant battle in my heart and mind caused discontent and confusion.  I had no idea what it was that I needed, and certainly did not know who this elusive “me” was.   Down deep, I knew that there was much to learn about myself, and knew that it would not be an easy thing…to find my true purpose, and to feel comfortable in my own skin.

My main struggle was that I honestly believed that I needed to be perfect…look perfect, act perfect, and have a perfect family who lived in a perfectly clean home in order to be even close to the level of anyone  else in the world.  So I tried day after day, week after week, month after month, and then year after year, to look like all was good.

Except that I knew I could never be perfect in any area of my life, and so I could never be “ok.”  It was a conundrum.  And I went round and round, searching for who I really was, and what I was doing on this planet.

Even though I wasn’t yet aware of the presence of the Holy Spirit in my life, he lead me to the first steps of reading self help books, and then to therapy.  Book after book, and each therapy session  taught me one tidbit after another, teaching me to love myself and not to be afraid of asking, and sometimes demanding, what I needed to be happy.

When I found my “power,” I realized that I was ok the way I was, and everyone else needed to know what “I” needed to be happy.  It was a time of selfishness…it was all about me.  In the midst of this process, I learned to accept and love myself unconditionally…both my strengths and weaknesses.

When I learned to accept and love myself, somehow I was transformed.

Without conscious effort, I began to accept both the strengths and weaknesses of my family, my friends, and the people who were placed in my daily life.  I learned to focus on the good, and overlook the bad in others.  Miraculously, my happiness level rose exponentially.

It seems to me that Jesus was there every step of the way, leading me to continue learning  one more thing after another  that would ultimately bring me closer to the power of Love…to Him.

I started out as feeling inferior and empty, and then realized that I am a  child of God, with unique gifts.  The error that I made (and the same one I am seeing over and over in others) was to think that my happiness is the most important thing in this life. That I needed to focus on myself, and in that way, would find happiness.

That was a deception.

True joy and happiness is realized through reaching out and helping other people.  It is opening our hearts to the power of the Holy Spirit, and asking Him to fill us with himself.  It is looking for ways to be a blessing to others, and to be humble in our dealings with those who hurt us or cause us to be uncomfortable.  When filled with the Spirit of God, it becomes easier to see through hurtful words and actions, and see the hurting heart that lies beneath.

In knowing your true worth…that you are loved totally and unconditionally by God…it is easier to stand your ground in a more loving way.  Without anger, jealousy, or bitterness.

I now know that I “found myself” when I learned that my true identity lies in the Lord.  His love surrounds me and fills my heart.  This love begs to be shared!

It’s not all about me.  It is all about Him… that lives within me.  And my purpose is where He leads me.

 

For I am confident of this very thing, that He who began a good work in you will perfect it until the day of Christ Jesus.  Philippians 1:6

Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God—  children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.  John 1:12-13

Accept one another, then, just as Christ accepted you, in order to bring praise to God.  Romans 15:7

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.  The second is this: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself. There is no commandment greater than these.” Mark 12:30-31

 

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What Are You Giving Up?

For me, the Lenten Season has always been a little intimidating.  It seemed as though I could not absorb the true poverty of spirit needed to open hearts (including my own) to the fullness of the love and mercy of Jesus Christ.  There were times when it felt like I was just “going through the motions”, giving up this, saying this prayer, going to Lenten Services.  In other words, to be perfectly honest, many times I was trying to worship with my “head” instead of my heart and soul.

This year I feel the Lord physically drawing me toward Him.  What ways can I deny myself in order to depend more fully on Jesus?  How can I open my heart in faith and trust, to help those in need around me?  In what ways can I throw myself at the feet of my Lord and worship Him more fully?

On Ash Wednesday, I came across this post on the St. Jude Facebook page.  The words touched my heart and opened my eyes to some “freeing” ways of giving things up, so as to be filled with the love, peace and joy of Christ.  I wanted to share with you…maybe there will be something you can “give up” that will bring you closer to Jesus.

Looking for something to give up for Lent?

Give up resentment and become more forgiving.

Give up hatred and return good for evil.

Give up complaining and be more grateful.

Give up pessimism and become more hopeful

Give up worry and become more trusting.

Give up anger and become more patient.

Give up pettiness and become more noble.

Give up gloom and become more joyful.

Give up doubt and turn to God.

Starting with this Lenten Season,  allow yourself the freedom to let go of the things that are keeping you from the mercy and love of Jesus.  He is right there…right with you…right now.

And he is waiting for you to invite him in, so he can fill you with Himself.  How long will you make him wait?

Pope Francis’ Lenten Message 2014


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A New Chapter in Your Story

What in your life needs a change…a new beginning?  Think hard about this question.

You can’t fool God.  The Holy Spirit knows the innermost secrets of why you are the person you are, and where your struggles and pain originated from.  Much of the time, you are not even aware of the real roots of the fear, bitterness, anger, hurt, pain, shame, rebellion and anxiety that reside in your heart and hold you back from the joy that Jesus wishes to bestow on you.

In the story of your life, why do you choose to relive the same chapter, over and over?  What are you holding on to?  Has your reliving and hanging on to the pain and hurts in your life helped you in any way?  Do you feel free and joy-filled, or do you feel bound and miserable?

You can continue to lie to the world, and even lie to yourself, however your lies are ineffective with your Heavenly Father.  He knows the truth of your pain.  His love for YOU is so perfect and all consuming, that he sent his Son into our sinful world to take upon himself…all of your sins, all of your weaknesses, and all of your pain and suffering.  He experienced and felt all of that pain and suffering for you,  so you could be saved and have eternal life with him!

You may be asking, “Where has God been while I was hurt, abused, and shamed?”  Why wasn’t he there for me?

He was there all along and is still there….waiting…for you to say YES to him.

He is waiting for you to finally let go of the pain, which is so tightly clenched in your closed hands and heart.  He is waiting to hear you say,

“Jesus, I  trust in you.  I am sorry for all the ways I have offended you and closed my heart to you.  I ask that you take control of my life…my body, mind and soul.  I submit all that I am to You, for I am nothing on my own.  I have tried so many ways to heal myself, and I finally realize that your saving mercy and love is the only true way to happiness and joy.  Help me to submit all that I am to you, and give me the strength to forgive the ones in my life that have opened the doors to my bitterness and despair.  Help me to renounce the darkness and hardness of heart that permeates my soul. I pray that you replace the darkness with your pure and loving light, and infuse my heart with the intense love of your Sacred Heart.  Thank you, Jesus.  Thank you for never giving up on me.  Thank you for always loving me.”

I  assure you, that after you give yourself totally to the Lord, He will bless your life with a brand new chapter…leading to true joy and eternal life.   You will have a new direction, and your story of faith will be a blessing to many suffering souls.

Are you willing to take that step and let go?  Jesus is right there in your presence, waiting to hear your answer.