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A Different Kind of Illumination

It was always my belief that as my relationship with Jesus grew,  and my understanding of The Catholic Faith became stronger, that somehow my mind and soul would become enlightened, and I would be infused with deep spiritual truths and secrets that were not available to everyone.

I was waiting for the illumination of truth that was outside of myself…kind of like waiting for the universe to open to me and for “magic” to happen.

In reality, something very different is happening.  The more I learn and grow, and the more I pray, a different illumination is taking place that I never expected…even though I actually prayed for it.

I prayed that The Holy Spirit would shine light into the darkness that exists in my soul, and draw the unknown dark areas out, that I may be healed and filled more fully with his Presence.  When I prayed those requests, I am not sure I even thought about how this would happen…how God would heal me.

I put my trust in the healing power of Jesus, and asked Him to work in me and through me.

The illumination that is occurring is not enlightening me with unknown secrets that will magically make things better.  It is not an easy or instantaneous fix.

What I am experiencing, is the revelation, one by one, of forgotten sins.  Ways that I offended God, ways that I hurt other people. Past sins that were committed due to my lack of faith, and also due to my weaknesses and bad choices.   And also sins that I am guilty of now, and how those sins have hurt and are still hurting those that I love.

What is being illuminated, is how I have sinned against God in so many ways, and how I am not worthy.  

Through this difficult process, I  feel guilty, ashamed, horrified, helpless, vulnerable, and very small. I wonder how Jesus could still love me, through all of that muck.

And then I remember… Jesus never left me.  He was always right there, suffering alongside me, through all the pain I went through… even though I found many ways of pulling away from him or keeping him at arms length.

As I am convicted of sin after sin, I am extremely grateful for the Sacrament of Reconciliation.  That through my confession, Jesus himself forgives me through the Priest who is my confessor, and I am given grace through that sacrament.

If there are dark areas that you are struggling with, know that Jesus is right there with you, waiting for you to acknowledge them.  Trust in Jesus, and in the Sacrament of Reconciliation that he gifted you with in His Holy Catholic Church.  Reach out for the graces and peace that await you.

He loves you and is waiting for youdon’t keep him waiting too long.

 

For nothing is hidden that will not be disclosed, nor is anything secret that will not become known and come to light.  Luke 8:17

May the God of peace himself sanctify you entirely; and may your spirit and soul and body be kept sound and blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.  The one who calls you is faithful, and he will do this. 1 Thessalonians 5:23-24

 

 


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Beyonce, We are Praying for You

Wow, what a sad and confused world we live in.

Recently, I came across an article about Beyonce and her defense of the hyper-sexual and disgusting lyrics of some of her songs.  I was going to post the links containing the lyrics, however, after reading some of them, I decided against it.   If you think I am overreacting or off-base, please do some research and check out the lyrics she belts out and the way she exposes her “sexuality” to the world.

Most troubling to me is that many Christians are supporting her twisted and confused views by attending her concerts, purchasing her music, and what’s really the hardest for me to fathom, there are parents who promote her to their young daughters as a role model.  How very sad.

Bill O’Reilly, among others, have slammed Beyonce for promoting sexually suggestive lyrics in her songs,  however she remains unfazed.  She continues to urge women to “take control of  their sexuality.”   She professes Christianity, and feels that there is a double standard for men and women, and she feels women should  “own their sexuality.”

Apparently she feels that giving yourself and your body away instead of, or before someone takes it from you is being in control?  That sounds really scary to me.  It almost sounds like something that might take root in someone’s heart that has been sexually abused.  Maybe a way to hold on to the feeling that you are in control?

I can hear some of you now, asking why I am singling out Beyonce because there are so many entertainers out there that perform the same type of trash or even worse.  Or maybe you believe that I am being judgemental.

Well, I am judging the words and actions, and let me be clear, I do not support the message she is seductively spewing.  Satan is most dangerous when he is disguised in a beautiful and appealing package.  And the reason  why her behavior stands out to me is because of her claims of being Christian.  How many little girls are watching her perform, singing along with  those demeaning lyrics, imitating the struts and grinds, and attempting to dress like her?  How many little girls are internalizing the idea that their sexuality is meant to be dirty and their bodies are there for men (or women) to ogle and lust after?  Or that their happiness will be attained by promiscuous sex as long as they are in control?  As long as they “take control of their sexuality?”

Beyonce, you can’t fool me.  No matter what you look like on the outside, no matter how talented you are and all the money you have acquired through your “entertaining”, you are miserable and suffering inside.  Your heart is still searching…you still have a hole in your heart and a spirit that is hungry for more.

That hole that is deep inside you will never be filled with your fame.  It will never be filled by men and/or women lusting after you.  It will never be filled by the masses who say yes to everything you say and do.

Real friends…the people who truly love you are the only ones who will tell you the truth.

I love you and would like to share a truth with you that took me a lifetime to finally figure out.

Your worth does not come from your sexuality.  It is not “your role” or “your place” to look good for the world.  Your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit.  Let me repeat…your body is a temple of the Holy Spirit.  That is what you are meant to be.  You are loved by God in such a beautiful way, you can never even comprehend.  Why are you looking elsewhere for that love?

Your happiness and joy will not come from being on display for other’s pleasure, which is what you are doing.  Admit it.

Your true happiness will only come from the submitting of your whole self to Jesus…body, mind and soul…not from “taking control of your sexuality.”  Ask Jesus to take control of your sexuality…along with every other aspect of your life, including motherhood and your marriage.

You will find, as I did, that Jesus will empower you with love and wisdom, and you will be a vessel of enlightenment and true freedom to women, instead of continuing to encourage their belief that sex and promiscuity is the answer.

May God bless you Beyonce, and all the girls and women who look up to you for guidance.  There are many of us praying for you.

 

Do you not know that your bodies are members of Christ himself? Shall I then take the members of Christ and unite them with a prostitute? Never! Do you not know that he who unites himself with a prostitute is one with her in body? For it is said, “The two will become one flesh.” But whoever is united with the Lord is one with him in spirit.

Flee from sexual immorality. All other sins a person commits are outside the body, but whoever sins sexually, sins against their own body. Do you not know that your bodies are temples of the Holy Spirit, who is in you, whom you have received from God? You are not your own; you were bought at a price. Therefore honor God with your bodies.   1 Corinthians 6:15-20