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A Different Kind of Illumination

It was always my belief that as my relationship with Jesus grew,  and my understanding of The Catholic Faith became stronger, that somehow my mind and soul would become enlightened, and I would be infused with deep spiritual truths and secrets that were not available to everyone.

I was waiting for the illumination of truth that was outside of myself…kind of like waiting for the universe to open to me and for “magic” to happen.

In reality, something very different is happening.  The more I learn and grow, and the more I pray, a different illumination is taking place that I never expected…even though I actually prayed for it.

I prayed that The Holy Spirit would shine light into the darkness that exists in my soul, and draw the unknown dark areas out, that I may be healed and filled more fully with his Presence.  When I prayed those requests, I am not sure I even thought about how this would happen…how God would heal me.

I put my trust in the healing power of Jesus, and asked Him to work in me and through me.

The illumination that is occurring is not enlightening me with unknown secrets that will magically make things better.  It is not an easy or instantaneous fix.

What I am experiencing, is the revelation, one by one, of forgotten sins.  Ways that I offended God, ways that I hurt other people. Past sins that were committed due to my lack of faith, and also due to my weaknesses and bad choices.   And also sins that I am guilty of now, and how those sins have hurt and are still hurting those that I love.

What is being illuminated, is how I have sinned against God in so many ways, and how I am not worthy.  

Through this difficult process, I  feel guilty, ashamed, horrified, helpless, vulnerable, and very small. I wonder how Jesus could still love me, through all of that muck.

And then I remember… Jesus never left me.  He was always right there, suffering alongside me, through all the pain I went through… even though I found many ways of pulling away from him or keeping him at arms length.

As I am convicted of sin after sin, I am extremely grateful for the Sacrament of Reconciliation.  That through my confession, Jesus himself forgives me through the Priest who is my confessor, and I am given grace through that sacrament.

If there are dark areas that you are struggling with, know that Jesus is right there with you, waiting for you to acknowledge them.  Trust in Jesus, and in the Sacrament of Reconciliation that he gifted you with in His Holy Catholic Church.  Reach out for the graces and peace that await you.

He loves you and is waiting for youdon’t keep him waiting too long.

 

For nothing is hidden that will not be disclosed, nor is anything secret that will not become known and come to light.  Luke 8:17

May the God of peace himself sanctify you entirely; and may your spirit and soul and body be kept sound and blameless at the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ.  The one who calls you is faithful, and he will do this. 1 Thessalonians 5:23-24

 

 


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We are All Accountable

Praying at the Planned Parenthood abortion center during 40 Days for Life, has been heart wrenching, eye opening, and humbling.  Although I am always very aware of the evil that is flippantly referred to as “abortion,” and offer prayers for the babies and all involved,  spending time in front of the actual abortion mill has been enlightening for me.  Especially during this Lenten time.

There is a mixture of people who offer themselves and commit to pray in front of the “clinics.”  During the time that I have been there, most of the ones praying at the vigil are senior citizens, however, in general, there are all age groups.   The atmosphere is prayerful toward the ones entering Planned Parenthood as clients, and also toward any staff members.  Anytime a person passes by any of the ones holding vigil, they are met with either respectful silence, or with a smile or a quiet hello.

There are a few things that really made me stop to think.

I am aware that there are many reasons that women would choose to orchestrate the killing of the baby that has been conceived in their womb.  Although I truly believe that most mothers are not fully aware that they are already mothers from the moment of conception …and they are participating in the destruction of their babies.

Society, and Planned Parenthood itself has brainwashed many women into thinking that having an abortion is merely “terminating or ending a pregnancy.” THAT IS A LIE.  Abortion is the willful killing of a baby, who is growing in what should be the most natural and safe place possible.

So, I guess I was expecting to see more sadness on the faces of the mothers  that were being walked in to the Covid 19 station in the parking lot..their boyfriends or husbands, walking with them and handing them over to the clinic to put an end to the “problem” that they are dealing with.

What I saw was mostly very young girls/women walking over to get checked in, with some turning around to point and laugh at those of us that were praying. I saw the boys/men “doing their supportive duty” by walking them to the place where babies’ lives are taken from them.  After the women are dropped off, the male companions walk around scrolling on their cellphones, wait in their cars, or briskly walk away.

My thoughts and prayers went out to the babies…that maybe some would be saved by last minute decisions, and also praying for their souls.  I prayed that the Blessed Mother and Jesus would encircle  those mothers, babies and fathers (or anyone that brought them to the abortion clinic) with love and the light of conversion.  That they would realize that they need to seek forgiveness, not only for the abortion, but in many cases, also the lifestyle that lead to the pregnancy in the first place.

Many mothers that abort their babies, suffer through years of despair and guilt before facing the horror of what they have done, making the decision to ask God for forgiveness, and repent of their sin.  The repentance includes a change in lifestyle and beliefs, and will affect all aspects of their lives, just as with any other mortal, grievous sin.  My prayer for these mothers, and all involved, is that their conversion comes quickly, so they can feel the true peace of Jesus’ Love in their hearts.

I thought about the hypocrisy and idiocy of the “Covid 19 Station” that was positioned in the parking lot before the entrance into the facility.  Let’s make sure the clients and staff are well protected with masks, thermometers, and lots of sanitizing gel…as they are led in to kill their babies.  Do they even think these thoughts?  How have we, as a society, come to this point?

Right before my time to leave, a man rode past the vigil on his bicycle.  He was screaming, “perverts, perverts, perverts” at the little group of praying senior citizens.  I don’t think that I have ever seen Satan that obvious…you see, Satan always twists and reverses good and evil.

So, as I prayed, all these thoughts were flicking on and off in my mind.  My focus was on my prayers, however, when I looked up, I couldn’t stop thoughts from forming by what my eyes were processing…however, I continued praying for all involved.  I will also pray for the people who actually live in the house directly next to the abortion mill, for I can not imagine living next door to that evil.  Hopefully, someone in that house prays for those babies and their mothers.

It is so sad and heartwrenching to watch these mothers walk into the clinic, and not be able to talk to them, comfort them, let them know they can choose life…there is much support available to them…that women are stronger than they know, capable of more than they realize, and deeply loved by the True God that created them.

We must, as a world, as a nation, as a community, as families, as Christians, continue to pray for Jesus to have mercy on us and to heal us.  We are all accountable in some way…we are all sinners.

May we humble ourselves and beg God to forgive us, heal our land, heal our Church, and heal our hearts. May we open our hearts to ways that we can be of service to those in crisis, to offer love to those that we meet everyday, and look for ways to share love and support.

And may we share the Good News with all who are suffering…that there is nothing that can keep them away from the love and mercy of God except themselves.  All it takes is a decision to accept Jesus as their Lord and Savior, and then learn the Faith and live it.

May we all hunger to walk in the Light of Jesus, and ask his Blessed Mother and our Guardian Angels to guard us and lead us to Him.

 


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We Must Seek Wisdom

My child, if you accept my words
    and treasure up my commandments within you,
 making your ear attentive to wisdom
    and inclining your heart to understanding;
 if you indeed cry out for insight,
    and raise your voice for understanding;
 if you seek it like silver,
    and search for it as for hidden treasures—
 then you will understand the fear of the Lord
    and find the knowledge of God.
 For the Lord gives wisdom;
    from his mouth come knowledge and understanding;
 he stores up sound wisdom for the upright;
    he is a shield to those who walk blamelessly,
 guarding the paths of justice
    and preserving the way of his faithful ones.  Proverbs 2:1-8

My brothers and sisters in Christ, we are living in deceptive, dark times.

There are many things that are happening in our country, in Christ’s Church, and in the whole world that our eyes, heart and conscience tell us are evil.  At the same time, the darkness is working through every nook and cranny of our culture, attempting to override reality and fill us with confusion, fear, bitterness, despair and a spirit of submission to the great lie of Satan.

Satan wants us to believe that all is lost. He wants us to believe that the government can solve all of our problems…that we don’t need Almighty God.

Satan wants us to submit to the confusion of our sexuality, and what marriage truly is.

Satan wants us to give up on the One True Catholic Church…because of the evil he has planted there through his infiltration.

Satan is working through the Covid19 virus…attempting to separate us from our family, friends, and our communal worship of the One True God.

Satan is working through lost souls that are attempting to spread their mental and spiritual anguish to all of us.

I am here today to remind you… the devil is a liar.  Do not give in to his deceptive tactics.  He is working under the false impression that he is winning the battle…and is not even hiding himself.  He is counting on the fact that we are not aware of The Truth…which is that Jesus is our Savior, and as long as we seek The Truth…which is God The Father, Son and Holy Spirit, we are protected from Satan’s deception.

You see, Satan wants nothing more than YOUR SOUL with him in hell. Turn your eyes away from the lies and evil, and place your gaze and trust upon Jesus.

The evil is being revealed in more ways everyday, and through eyes that see, and ears that hear, we can discern who is a child of God, and who is a child of Satan.

Which are you?  It’s time for a choice.

Give yourself to Jesus…seek His wisdom and knowledge.  Ask for faith and eyes to see. Let the Lord know that you belong to Him, and invite Him to fill your heart and soul with His love.  When you do that, He will guide you to the ways you are meant to serve Him and His Kingdom.

We need to SEEK.  

Ask the Lord to lead you, and then look for the ways that He reaches out to you. When someone refers a book or podcast, take the time to read, watch or listen. (always use discernement regarding the source) Pray. Attend Mass in person. Receive the sacraments. Pray the Rosary…pray for our country, the world, the Church.  Pray for yourself, your spouse, your family and friends.  Pray for those in despair or under Satan’s spells of deceit and confusion. Pray for the Pope and for those in the religious life. (many leaders of the Church are deceived) Pray for our government and the conversion of sinners…especially those that are standing for issues that greatly offend Almighty God.

The time for complacency have come to an end.

Search for The Truth.  Give yourself to Jesus. Admit your weaknesses and sins.  Ask forgiveness and REPENT. Turn away from the sins that are keeping you from knowing the Truth.  Once you make the choice to seek God, you will never be the same.  You will KNOW Jesus, and you will carry Him in your heart and share Him with this sick, suffering world.

May God bless us and have mercy on us!

John 3:16 “For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life.

Ephesians 6:12 – For we wrestle not against flesh and blood, but against principalities, against powers, against the rulers of the darkness of this world, against spiritual wickedness in high [places].

2 Corinthians  4:4 – In whom the god of this world hath blinded the minds of them which believe not, lest the light of the glorious gospel of Christ, who is the image of God, should shine unto them.

Ephesians 6:11  – Put on the whole armour of God, that ye may be able to stand against the wiles of the devil

John 10:10 The thief comes only to steal and kill and destroy. I came that they may have life and have it abundantly

 

 


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Use This Time Wisely

Here we are.

Smack dab in the center of a havoc that most of us have never experienced or even imagined could happen. How are we dealing with it? What can we actually do about it? How can we make our country, and the world, a better place?

What are we focusing on?

A perfect storm of reasons to lose hope are gathering around us. We are constantly being warned regarding the dangers of catching or infecting others with the Covid 19 Virus, which affects our lives in all aspects. Our time (or lack thereof) with family, our choices or even possibilities for recreation, shopping, entertainment, fellowship with friends. Our livelihoods. Our freedom to worship.

Many people are living in depression and despair from lack of physical contact with loved ones, or even simple contact with other human beings. Those needs for comfort, interaction, validation, and inner joy that comes from sharing time with others, are not met by Zoom or Facetime calls. Most of the time, those types of communication make the longing for true physical contact and relationship with loved ones even more intense.

We are living in a time of political strife. There are two basic choices that exist, and it’s important that we all understand the realities of the choice that we make.

Our Church is also experiencing strife from within. There are leaders in the Church that are straying from Scripture and also from the teachings and dogma of the faith itself. Because of Church closures, and limited availability, it is extremely difficult to access Mass and the Sacraments.

How can we navigate through the swirling cesspool that is our current reality, without the grace of God that is dispensed through the sacraments…especially Our Lord in The Holy Eucharist, and also in Reconciliation? How could the Church withhold these blessings from us?

On top of those things, we are still suffering through our normal, day to day life struggles, including physical and mental health, sickness, death, financial needs, and just the anxiety of day to day life in general. However, being that we are under an extra blanket of darkness due to the combination of oppressions, many of us are losing focus and hope.

So…how are you doing, and how are you dealing with all of this?

Are you constantly searching social media or the news to find validation or the magical answer to our dilemma?

Are you retreating from life, and closing your eyes and ears to the truth of our current world?

Have you lost your faith in others and in God?

Are you just giving up, kind of saying, “whatever?”

Because in your heart…in your soul, you are already aware that you are not in control. Although you might have built a world for yourself where you felt successful, happy, peaceful and secure, you now are starting to realize that you are not in control and never were. It was an illusion.

You are looking for peace in all the wrong places…peace can never be found in this world. Not true peace…we can not create it for ourselves or others. We are called to work toward peace, however, we can never be totally sure of the intent in others when they offer “peace” or the “answer” to us. How do we know when that “peace” is an illusion?

Sooo…what I am learning, is to search for true peace in the One True Source.

Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you: not as the world giveth, give I unto you. Let not your heart be troubled, neither let it be afraid. John 14:27

Use this “lockdown” time wisely.

If you don’t believe in God, just take a tiny step and pray (even if you don’t believe…yes I’m talking to you!) and ask Him for the gift of faith.

Ask him for the faith to recognize and be open to all the ways He is trying to show Himself to you. Because I promise, He IS pursuing you. Look around and see the blessings He has brought into your life. See your family, loved ones, friends. See the way you are blessed with your senses, to have the ability to appreciate the beauty He has created for YOU. See the home, food, clothing, your career/vocation.

We all have a different calling and purpose. We all have different blessings. We need to be grateful for those blessings.

How will we allow Jesus to work through us to be a point of light in the worldnot to add to the darkness. No matter what our divine purpose is, none of us are meant to be a point of darkness…that is a choice to be made.

Make the choice to grow closer to Our Lord…learn your faith. Pray. Reach out in love to those that are struggling. Allow Jesus to flood you with love…so that you finally realize your worth and your place in helping to make this world a better place.

Make the choice to be a vessel of light that the Holy Spirit can work through in this world to touch all that have hardened hearts. Those hearts need to be melted with the pure love and peace of Jesus.

Only then will our world be changed. Only then will we experience true peace. One heart at a time.

 


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Rest in the Love of Jesus

There are many reasons that I could give to explain why I haven’t written a post for such a long time.  However, this is what sums it up:

The facade of my life that I unknowingly created in my own mind was demolished.  This devastated me, and I am still processing what it means to be me.

I thought that I dealt with each life event as they happened…but I didn’t, all the way back to my childhood.  What I did was put all of it on the back burner, thinking that I could go on with my life without actually feeling the pain, confusion, disappointment or anger that was simmering inside of me, just below the surface.  Because, I have so many wonderful blessings in my life…why couldn’t I just focus on those blessings?  What was wrong with me, what was that gnawing feeling down deep that there was more to me than I was willing to acknowledge?

The last few years were extremely difficult for me: 

My sons and their wives moved across country…something I never, ever envisioned happening to our family.

My mom passed away after living with my husband and me for over ten years.  The stress of being responsible for her health and happiness, and then sharing in her dying process through hospice in our home, was overwhelming.  As I started to grieve for her, I realized that I never truly grieved or faced the death of my father years ago. And both of those grief processes are very complicated.

Making the decision to move cross country to be near our new grandson, and my oldest son and daughter in law.  That meant leaving friends, family, and our beautiful home in Virginia.  Which also meant downsizing about 75 percent of our belongings, and moving into a much smaller condo in California.  As I sold and gave away so many things that had been a part of my life for so long, I kind of put blinders on, and pushed all my feelings to the side.  I did the exact same thing regarding my friends and family that I would be moving away from.  How else could I have made that move?  I literally numbed myself without even realizing it.

Then I started a job at an assisted living community.  I work reception, and have fallen in love with many of the residents and their families.  Although I love the people, and the relationships, something else started to happen to me.  I started suffering anxiety/panic attacks, and I did not understand why.

Evidently, God isn’t through with me yet.  More and more dark layers are being peeled away from my heart.  I am facing demons that have lied to me for many, many years.  And once again, Jesus is helping me to heal gently.  I want it all to be gone NOW, however, He knows the timing…He knows what remains hidden inside of me.

One of the reasons that I haven’t posted in such a long time, is that I don’t have all the answers.  However, I know now that it’s ok not to have the answers.  Jesus has been there each and every minute of my life. He knows The Truth…He knows my true soul and my true self.  My life is in His hands, and I trust where He is leading me.

He is there for all of us…in our joy, sadness, sin, anger, confusion, grief, and pain. When we truly accept that, we can stop trying to control everything and everyone in our lives, and we can rest in the love of Jesus.  And we will come closer and closer to understanding “what it means to be me.”

 

 

 

 

 


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Love Moments

Each day, we are bombarded with darkness in the news.  Story after story of atrocities are being revealed and exposed to us by the minute.  We are allowing ourselves to be guided into a sort of numbness and helplessness by the stories that are purposely chosen to be released to us through the media.

We are not being told the whole story.

Yes, this world is filled with darkness.  And in my opinion, it is a good thing that we are becoming more aware of the sin and evil that always existed in the shadows.  Now, we don’t have to look too far to discover evil…it is right in front of our faces twenty-four hours a day.

However, grace, kindness and mercy also flows around us each day.  We only need to search for goodness and ask that our eyes be opened so that we may see it.

A few months ago, I started a job at an Assisted Living Retirement Community.  The facility where I work is beautiful and offers much in the way of life enrichment.  I have fallen in love with the residents, and also with the beautiful staff that cares for them, and shows love in so many ways.

Let me share a few of the moments I have witnessed…

Wonderful exchanges between friends, where one is hard of hearing.  Watching as the one friend patiently repeats, slowly and loudly, until the friend can understand.  This happens over and over throughout the day, and I have never seen impatience or mean-spiritedness in the interactions.

One resident in particular, is a blessing to all by her calmness of spirit, and her willingness to help.  Not only does she greet and speak with each person she encounters, she has also been extremely patient and helpful with me, while I was training for my position.

Residents that are filled with pain or with bent bodies, refusing to give up.  They face each day as it comes and push forward one step at a time.  They refuse to give up.

Family members that visit their loved ones almost every day.  The daily struggle of their own lives, plus the concern and emotion they feel regarding their family members that are living at the Assisted Living Community, are very evident. They are feeling many different emotions as life pulls them in different directions.  However, they are there to share love and comfort…they are there to share themselves.  It is a beautiful thing to witness.

Many family members live too far to visit a lot.  On Mother’s Day, I watched love and pride radiate on the face of one mother when she first saw her family walk in the door.  Then my heart was pierced, along with hers, as I saw her goodbye embrace with her son, that she doesn’t see regularly… Love is such a beautiful, powerful force, that is so hard to even comprehend.  A mother’s bond with her child is unexplainable.

When someone is having an “off” day, I watch as community members try to guide their friends to socialize and participate in events.  I do not see judgement in play.  What I see is an inner knowing and understanding of the difficulties that others may be experiencing, and their concern for that person.

A hand on a shoulder, a hug, a warm smile, an invitation, a conversation, validation, acceptance, service, love…these wonderful expressions of love are all around us each day.  You may not have the opportunity to see the same love moments that I do, but I can guarantee that they are happening no matter where you are.

Look for those moments.  For when you find them, you will find Jesus.


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Be that “Somebody!”

Sometimes it is the simplest of words that can jump out and touch our minds and hearts.

Often, those words convey truths that already live inside of us, however, we have never fully comprehended the potential or power of that truth.

Today I was hit by a zinger by none other than Mother Angelica. I am reading one of her books, “Mother Angelica’s Little Book of Life Lessons and Everyday Spirituality.”  This book is filled with page after page of wisdom, written for all Christians…not just Catholics…in case you were wondering.  

“You may be the only Jesus your neighbor will ever see.”

Wow…an extremely simple and powerful thought.

How do we portray Jesus in our daily walk?  When we cross paths with the homeless, when someone is rude to us, when we are feeling triggered by words or actions, when we are stressed, when we are suffering, when someone doesn’t understand our intentions or beliefs, when someone aggressively disagrees with us, when things aren’t going our way???

We have all gone through those situations.  There are many times that I have been angry, disrespectful, apathetic, and unforgiving.  How blessed we are, that we can ask forgiveness from God, and not only be forgiven, but blessed in a way that helps us to repent from our hurtful thoughts and actions.

How can we show “Jesus” to our family and all those that we cross paths with?

For me, the most important step is to pray that the Holy Spirit works through me, and touches those on my path with His love…whether I am aware of it or not.  Meaning, that even when I fall short, or don’t handle a situation as well as I would have liked, He would bless those I encounter with His love and mercy.  And that He works through me in my daily life, helping me to be a transparent person and a true Christ Follower, so that those who happen to see me without my knowledge, will hopefully see the goodness of God working through me.

There are many ways that we can reveal the Jesus that lives within us to the world.  I am thinking of a few, however, know that in your creativity, you will find many other ways.

You may be the only Jesus your neighbor will ever see, when you choose to:

Make eye contact with all those you meet, including the homeless, or less advantaged…introduce yourself, initiate conversation, and if you are able, either share some cash with them, or ask if they need a meal or maybe a cold drink or a warming cup of coffee.  Allow Jesus to touch them through your kindness.  Let them know you SEE them…that they matter to you.

Share your smile liberally.  You would be amazed if you truly knew how your special smile can affect a heart…and someone’s day.

Give people the benefit of the doubt when they offend or are rude to you.  Take a moment to think before lashing out, and then pray for them.

Give honest compliments.  You know the kind…the thoughts that run through your head all the time.  “What a beautiful family you have!” “You were wonderful giving that presentation.”  “You look amazing in that outfit.”  “You have the most beautiful eyes, or hair, or spirit.”  “What a sweet dog you have, what is his name?”  “I admire your strength.” “You are an awesome teacher, and I appreciate what you do.”  “You are great at your job…thanks for the wonderful service.”  The list goes on and on.  Don’t be afraid to pass on the good that you notice or feel about a person.

Allow yourself to be human.  When you make a mistake, own up to it and apologize.  When you are feeling down or depressed, reach out and share your feelings with a trusted family member or friend.  Most of the time, they will already know you are going through a struggle and will be happy to understand why you are not being yourself.  Don’t make the mistake of thinking that allowing Jesus to shine through you means that you need to be “perfect.”

When there are tasks that need done, and you don’t feel like doing them, whether at home or at work, ask Jesus to work through you.  Say a prayer of thanksgiving for all of your blessings and offer it to the Lord.  Because, at that moment, the task at hand is God’s will for your life.  Learn to find joy in that knowledge.

Listen to the voice in your heart when certain names pop up in your mind.  That is the voice of the Holy Spirit, prodding you.  Make that visit or phone call, send a card or text to let the person know you are thinking of them and praying for them, fill a monetary or any other need that is an issue for them…always look for  a way to share love.  Oftentimes, it will be a small gesture, and sometimes you will be called to share something greater of yourself.

Learn to look for Jesus in each and every person…look past their weaknesses and flaws and look for the good.  If it is just a little flicker, focus on it and help them to understand the flicker (goodness) that lives within them.

And be sure to look for Jesus in yourself, and to focus on the goodness of His love inside your heart.  Bask in the mercy of his love, and your heart will overflow!

When I started this blog, I named it “Somebody Loves Me.”  I chose that name, because for many people, they need to know “Somebody Loves Me,” before they can start to believe that “God Loves Me.”

Be that “Somebody!”

 

 

 

 

 


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Jesus Christ Superstar

 

 

My husband and I look forward to watching the “Jesus Christ Superstar” movie, among a few others, each year at Easter time.  I know that there are different takes on this film, and many even believe it to be blasphemous.  I understand these thoughts and opinions and respect them.  There are many scenes  that make me wince.

Because, on the surface, the movie does indeed look to be disrespectful and blasphemous to Jesus and his divinity.  That is the intent…being that the characters are human, as we all are human.

In my opinion, the music and the casting of characters is absolutely heart touching and as perfect as worldly art can be.  When losing myself in the words and feelings communicated through the music and lyrics, I am drawn inward…to how we are connected to these characters, no matter what their flaws and sins happen to be.

For the last couple of days, “King Herod’s Song” keeps playing over and over again in my head.  Much of the lyrics jump out at me and pull me in.

Maybe you will understand my take on these words and how they help to enlighten my spirit and draw me closer to Jesus and his mercy.

Here are the lyrics:

Jesus, I am overjoyed

To meet You face to face.

You’ve been getting quite a name

All around the place.

Healing cripples Raising from the dead.

And now I understand You’re God……

At least that’s what You’ve said.

 

So You are the Christ

You’re the great Jesus Christ.

Prove to me that you’re divine

 Change my water into wine.

That’s all you need do

And I’ll know it’s all true.

 C’mon King of the Jews.

 

 Jesus, you just won’t believe

 The hit you’ve made around here.

 You are all we talk about

 The wonder of the year!

 Oh, what a pity If it’s all a lie…

 Still I’m sure that you can rock

 The cynics if you try.

 

 So if you are the Christ

 You’re the great Jesus Christ

 Prove to me that You’re no fool

 Walk across my swimming pool.

 If You do that for me

 Then I’ll let you go free.

 C’mon, King of the Jews!

 

 I only ask things I’d ask any superstar.

 What is it that you have got

 That puts You where You are?

 

I am waiting, yes, I’m a captive fan

I’m dying to be shown

That You are not just any man.

 

 So if you are the Christ

 Yes, the great Jesus Christ

 Feed my household with this bread

 You can do it on your head.

 Or has something gone wrong?

 Why do You take so long?

 Come on, King of the Jews!

 

 Hey, aren’t you scared of me, Christ?

 Mr. Wonderful Christ..

 You’re a joke, You’re not the Lord!

 You are nothing but a fraud!

 Take Him away He’s got nothing to say

 Get out, You King of the get out

 Get out, You King of the Jews

 Get out, You King of the Jews

 Get out of my life!

“King Herod’s Song (Jesus Christ Superstar/Soundtrack Version)” by Josh Mostel

 

Wow…what a deluge of ideas to cover.  So many thoughts and emotions are triggered by the words themselves, and also the delivery by King Herod.  The actor, Josh Mostel, certainly portrayed the part to a tee…filled with the arrogance of the life he has immersed himself in.

However, there is the faintest glimmer of hope and curiosity about the man, Jesus.  Could he really be God?

King Herod has heard about the miracles that Jesus has performed, and he is aware that there is something special about him.

He wants Jesus to be God…in the way that he wants him to be God.  He wants Jesus to perform miracles for him, on command, to prove Jesus’ divinity, in a way that will appease his doubts in the tangible way that he desires.

All the time King Herod is asking for miracles, he is still enmeshed in the ways of the world…in his sinful life.  While he would like proof that Jesus is Lord, he refuses to open his heart to the Truth, by keeping it shut tight within the company of perversion and worldly pleasure.

When Jesus does not perform on demand, and there are no evident miracles, the last line is very telling for all of us…

Get out, You King of the Jews… Get out of my life!

When we don’t want to change, or things don’t go as we think they should, we don’t want the “burden” of having Jesus in our lives.  We don’t want the guilt of admitting we are sinners. We keep him at arm’s length, and even banish him completely, in order for us to stay “comfortable” in our current life choices.

We are living in a time of great delusion, perversion, and immorality.  We have lost the ability to love each other, and in many cases, do not even have a clue as to how to have a real and true relationship with those that God places in our lives.

We are engrossed in our own circle of diversion that blind us to the Truth…which is Jesus.

In times of trouble we beg God to change our lives and perform miracles for ourselves and our loved ones.

All the while, surrounded with our arrogant and sinful lives.  We have the audacity to ask for miracles, for God to prove he is God, at the same time that we refuse to even consider changing our lives.

We surround ourselves with distractions…movies, music, books, fashion, politics, culture, spiritualism, fleshly desires, and miss what has always been right in our grasp.  Just like Herod, and his “posse.”

Did you notice the line, “I’m dying to be shown that You are not just any man.”  Yes, our spirits are dying, and in need of Jesus’ saving grace.  Our souls are longing to be saved.

If we only dare to break away from the deceit and sin that we have surrounded ourselves in…and humbly ask Jesus into our hearts and lives. To choose to believe, and then  pray that Jesus blesses us with the gift of faith.

And we must be willing to walk away from the ideas and things that are holding us captive in our self-imposed desolation.

Only then will we realize full relationship with Jesus…by trusting him and his ways in our lives, even when we might not see our prayers being answered in the way we think they should be.

My prayer is that in the midst of our confusion and the deceit that the world is surrounding us with, that we allow Jesus to shine his light into our souls and illuminate the darkness that resides within us.

And that we take that crucial step of faith toward the mercy and grace that Jesus is offering us…and allow him to start peeling away the layers of deception that have kept us from him.

Only then will we understand the miracles that are happening around us each and every moment. Even when we do not “demand” those miracles.

 

Jesus replied, “It is also written: ‘Do not put the Lord your God to the test.”  Matt 4:7

Trust in the Lord with all thine heart; and lean not unto thine own understanding. In all thy ways acknowledge him, and he shall direct thy paths. Proverbs 3:5-6 

if my people who are called by my name humble themselves, and pray and seek my face, and turn from their wicked ways, then I will hear from heaven, and will forgive their sin and heal their land.

2 Chronicles 7:14

 

 

 


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We are Covered

While I was praying the sorrowful mysteries of the rosary, my mind was overtaken with some of my past sins.  The kind that fill me with shame…the ones that linger in my mind every once in a while.

After a moment or two of feeling that guilt and shame, a vision that I had a few months ago (while saying the rosary) filled my being.

In this vision, I was the guilty one, and just about to be punished for my sins.  I deserved it, for my sins were many.  Jesus was bent over me, with his eyes firmly and lovingly set on mine.  The whip started flying…I could hear the sound of the cords cutting through the air and feel them ripping into  Jesus’ body.  I could feel his spirit, smell his scent in the moist air and feel his body wince with every connection of that whip against his flesh. I felt tremendous fear, however, Jesus never broke His loving and merciful gaze that pierced straight into my soul.  He lovingly protected me from each and every blow, and my body was never touched.

At that moment, I understood the amazing love that Jesus offers to me and all of us.  He came to Earth to save us…to suffer in our place for the sins that we have committed and are still committing.  He has placed Himself between us and our deserved punishment…and is still there for us.

He covers us in His love, mercy, and in His blood.

We must always remember, that when Jesus was beaten, blasphemed, mocked and crucified, these atrocities were not forced upon Him.  He offered Himself for us.  His life was not taken from Him…He offered His Body as atonement for our sins.  His life was given.

Freely, and without reserve.

What are we willing to offer Him of ourselves?

That is something that we must all think about on this precious Friday, and on every day that we are blessed with.

What are we willing to offer Him?

 

And he took bread, gave thanks and broke it, and gave it to them, saying, “This is my body given for you; do this in remembrance of me.”

In the same way, after the supper he took the cup, saying, “This cup is the new covenant in my blood, which is poured out for you.”   Luke 22:19-20

For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life.  John 3:16

But He was pierced through for our transgressions,
He was crushed for our iniquities;
The chastening for our well-being fell upon Him,
And by His scourging we are healed.  Isaiah 53:5